Crabby

Well...for now we have Kevin's laptop set up...I HATE this computer, and it hates me! SLOW ~ that's all I'm saying!!



I am crabby and stressed. How do you spell stressed? M.O.N.E.Y. How is it that there is never enough to go around? I budget, and I follow my budget. But, it is the little unexpected things that can wipe my budget out!! Here's my stress list of items that need to be taken care of:

1. oil change (simple enough but is now over a month overdue)

2. contacts (again, simple, but you put this with #1 & I need an extra $100)

3. property taxes (here's the big one!! $950 due Oct. 10th - enough said)

4. hair cut & color (it's bad but I guess I have to give up highlights for awhile)

5. waxing (not a necessity but getting there - my eyebrows are getting bushy!)

6. Jeep CD player has been broken for MONTHS!

7. Jeep steering wheel is making a horrible noise every time I turn the wheel for months! (who has the money to take a car to the shop for an unknown amount for the bill!!!)

8. And the latest ~ computer is dead & needs to be repaired for yet another unknown amount!!!

URGH!! I know times are tough while I try to finish my Masters b/c I am paying it out of my pocket as I go. I know that it will pay for itself in the end. I know some people have it WAY worse than me. But I am tired of trying to do the right thing and living paycheck to paycheck. I didn't charge one single thing all year until this month! I was so proud of myself. But this new school has a pretty strict dress code, and I had to go buy (charge) some new pants. (Plus, I've gained some weight, but that is another issue!) I guess I could charge $2000 to my credit card and take care of the list above - that is what most people would do - but I refuse! I won't do it!! I will drive my car listening to the same CD's over and over, listening to that freakin' steering wheel that is literally driving me insane, and I guess use this computer of Kevin's that I hate - until I can pay cash. Is that crazy? I could charge, but then it gets easy to charge everything & it builds and builds. My savings is at an all-time low since the divorce, so I refuse to borrow from that too. I guess I need a miracle or tighten up my budget EVEN more ~ and I am not a frivolous spender, so it is already tight! URGH!! FRUSTRATIONS!!!

Does anyone else ever feel like you just can't get ahead no matter what you do???